Awakening after Introspection

It feels like a fall. 
starting slowly, than fluttering through darkness solitary. 
A tower moment where the decent feels like destruction prior to the leveling of the knowledge you gained from those around you for a lifetime. The shunning of familiar guidance and a leap into the unknown where you break free from the shackles and chains and emerge anew waiting to refill, reborn in strength forged through the burning of oneself own attachments to that which is old and painful. An earth shattering interruption to your own existence and the inner knowledge it was only you who could bring it all down around you in order for it to be restored and balanced. 
It's facing your own demons, those that are ever present since your first moments in the world to the very moment you confront them head on. Face to face. A breaking down of your own patterns and calling self out on its own bullshit. A time of isolation, introspection, extreme grief, and the collapse within that either destroys or forces you into strength you never knew you had before. 
A turn to God in moments of heartbreaking realizations and a inner breaking to allow him within. Emerging calm, mindful, Intune with self and the world that surrounds, a knowing of interconnectedness and how every stone tossed in the pond creates a ripple much bigger than self, the wisdom to understand which stones to cast and which to keep. It's being grown enough to know that some stones once casted can't be retrieved, wisdom in knowing the pond is much bigger than it seems from where you stand, and the ripples touch everything and everyone to an extent. A divine justice being called in and order being bellowed outloud trickling down to the surface and casted into rooms where those in authority sit idly by. An exchange of knowledge creating sleepy eyes to awaken to the truth and not the illusions. Dark nights are different for everyone, but it usually leads to a call to recognize one's own path and the choice whether to leap or stay behind. It leads to God, inner reflection, strength, a new way of seeing and understanding why the pain endured was necessary in order to keep moving along the path presented. Preparation for something that would break us without first the process of shattering and healing. 
Understanding that sometimes at first you have to fight alone as you watch those you love and know back away from you. It's so that God can be called upon being the only option available at the time, source, higher power, Heavenly Father. I incorporated tarot readers and cards and spirituality and a collective as a crutch,as a family throughout my process. Evolving with heightened intuition, warrior woman strength, and feeling empowered. No longer weak, small, hopeless. Sometimes a tragedy occurs within our lives which forces this upon us, sometimes we do it twice, dependent on where we are in our lives. The key isn't to emerge a monster, numb and cold to what lays outside of us, it's to heal in perfect light and be able to pull others up even when we felt abandoned and on our own. It's not giving up hope, and continuing to fight while others give in to despair and being the bridge for them to cross so they may stand where you are now and not where you once were. We do not burn the bridge leaving others behind to ache. We reach out to them illuminating the way forward and show them it's safe.